Other Plans

There are those among you that are gearing up to send your newly graduated seniors off to college.   Lots of preparation, lists, and feelings go along with the transition.   While I always knew Bailey would not go to a traditional college, I wasn’t prepared for the sting of reality.   As I sent him off to train on the public bus on his way to his vocational school, I felt the tug of grief.   This wasn’t my plan. When the doctor’s thought early on that he had Down syndrome, I remember all the dreams evaporating before my eyes. Don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t trade Bailey for anything in the world, but as any parent would attest, we have a certain vision for our children’s future.  

I am fortunate to have a friend in the same point of life.  As we discussed our sadness, I realized that this is yet a another opportunity to learn something.   Sometimes I feel exhausted of all the opportunities presented to me.  I often wonder if maybe God could share some of the opportunities with others as I don’t want to be so selfish.    So, I will be sad for a while and that’s okay.   It is those moments that I realize that there is something bigger going on here.    I will grieve for what I thought his life would look like and anticipate what his life will be.   

 

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