Let’s be real. We have all done it.  You know, the misdirected anger that comes out at the people that don’t deserve it.  It has been referred to as sideways anger.   I can identify with this as lately, I have been inflicting this on all the people around me.   When I try to figure out what is causing it, I am stumped because there are so many factors.   Each are contributing to the issue, but pinpointing sometimes can be difficult.  Let’s start with the obvious.   My aging mother is a factor as she is quite demanding of my time.  The noose has been loosened a bit as we have hired a caregiver, but she has certain expectations of me that are unrealistic, yet she continues to push the envelope.   Then there is the grief factor.   I wrote about this previously in regards to Bailey and grieving what I thought his life would be before his diagnosis of Down syndrome.   Okay, maybe those two things are enough.  How can I change the way I deal?

Well, for me, writing is the best therapy.   This blog is an honest and raw way for me to communicate my life.   I don’t hide behind the idea of an image.    This is who I am.  We all walk through uncomfortable times in our lives, it is how we deal with them that makes us unique.   For me, I journal, blog, and I am working on a novel that is beyond funny.  Humor gets me through and developing these outrageous characters allows me to laugh at how exaggerated life can appear.   

So, today, I will embrace that I am a little uncomfortable.  However, I know this will pass.  That’s the beauty of learning to be comfortable with being uncomfortable.


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