Let’s be real. We have all done it. You know, the misdirected anger that comes out at the people that don’t deserve it. It has been referred to as sideways anger. I can identify with this as lately, I have been inflicting this on all the people around me. When I try to figure out what is causing it, I am stumped because there are so many factors. Each are contributing to the issue, but pinpointing sometimes can be difficult. Let’s start with the obvious. My aging mother is a factor as she is quite demanding of my time. The noose has been loosened a bit as we have hired a caregiver, but she has certain expectations of me that are unrealistic, yet she continues to push the envelope. Then there is the grief factor. I wrote about this previously in regards to Bailey and grieving what I thought his life would be before his diagnosis of Down syndrome. Okay, maybe those two things are enough. How can I change the way I deal?
Well, for me, writing is the best therapy. This blog is an honest and raw way for me to communicate my life. I don’t hide behind the idea of an image. This is who I am. We all walk through uncomfortable times in our lives, it is how we deal with them that makes us unique. For me, I journal, blog, and I am working on a novel that is beyond funny. Humor gets me through and developing these outrageous characters allows me to laugh at how exaggerated life can appear.
So, today, I will embrace that I am a little uncomfortable. However, I know this will pass. That’s the beauty of learning to be comfortable with being uncomfortable.