I have a secret to share……..when you make plans, God laughs. It’s true. Somehow, in the flurry of life, I have forgotten who is really in charge. Yesterday, as I tackled final preparations for my scheduled 10 am knee surgery, I was jolted by a phone call from the surgery center stating that my surgery would be at 4 pm, not 10 am. That was unnerving because I had plans. Plans of who would take me. Plans of how the day would look. I had PLANS!!!!! After the shock wore off, I was pleasantly surprised at the shift of my outlook.
I didn’t have to get up early. I didn’t have to crate the dogs for a long period of time. I could eat breakfast. Those are just a few pros to this. While I am anxious about the procedure which is natural, I am grateful that I am not spending the bulk of my day in waiting. It isn’t ideal, but God knows a whole lot better than I do. Sometimes I just need a reminder.
While I appear flexible, I am not. I have internal control issues that are exacerbated by outside obstacles. I am learning to let go, but if I am fearful or anxious, my need to be in the driver’s seat takes the lead. It is a process that I am slowly learning to navigate, but since I am still a willing subject, that is the only ingredient needed to live an uncomplicated existence. I just need to let God take the wheel and not be a backseat driver.