In the last few days I have felt a little unbalanced. Life has been delivering uncertainty to friends that I love and on top of that, I have been encountering a lack of kindness from a small majority of people. While it leaves a blanket of questions, I have to remember that there is more good in the world and I get to experience that on a daily basis. I can’t let the actions of a few taint the overall picture.
Yesterday, I learned a friend lost her mother suddenly and that left me feeling sad. Losing a parent, especially right before the holidays, sucks. That really is the only word that describes the experience. I have been there. When my Dad died, it was two weeks before Christmas. It was sudden and the holidays have never been the same for me. In fact, I dread them. Not because I can’t find joy in being with those that are still with me, but there is a void that can never be filled. So, I am filled with deep empathy and compassion as she walks through her grief.
So many others are walking through some tricky situations and I am very mindful that life can change in a moment. It is a reminder that being in the present is so vital in order to truly experience the gifts around me. I am so grateful for the awareness because there was a time when I resided in either the past or the future. I only vacationed in the present and those times were fleeting. I missed a lot.
Life is messy, but I need to remember that I can find happiness, love, kindness, compassion, and a list of other positive things despite the ugliness that might surround me. All is well as long as I stay in the moment.