The Decision

Part of my process is overthinking especially when I am fearful of losing or gaining something.   It is a twisted mind event that drives me crazy.   I don’t often attend the events in my head, but with Bryce’s college decision on the forefront, I found myself front row center for the hot mess converging in my brain.   Bryce only looked at two schools and the decision was based not only on his comfort at each institution but the acceptance into their student athletic trainer program.  One had already given him the green light while the other told him their process takes two to three months.   He was told that his place was not guaranteed to be held if he decided to wait for the other school’s decision.  Here is where my overthinking comes into play, I want to react and quickly alert the first school that he is in, but not my decision.   That is all fear.

So he paused.   I guess something that we have taught him resonated.  He processed all the information and after some “reflection” (the fact that he uses meditation for his process makes me a little giddy) decided to go with his gut.  His initial feeling of WKU was positive.  He felt like he fit.  Of course, there are still squirrels having a rave in my head, but all of that will soon dissipate as we move closer toward his departure.   This is my first kid navigating adulthood.  It is terrifying and exhilarating all at the same time.  Adulthood looks a little different with Bailey, so I am captivated by this process of letting go and allowing Bryce to come into his own.    The future is bright for him and I can’t wait to see what happens next.   In the meantime, I just spent a fortune on WKU apparel just in time for Christmas gifts.

 

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