Every time life is presenting me with challenges aka opportunities, I can hear my friend’s voice in my head and it makes me laugh. When I was in Santa Fe last summer with some friends, we went to this very odd establishment called Meow Wolf. The concept is set up for visitors to experience unique art installations with multimedia elements. It was like the twilight zone, but I laughed through our whole visit because one of my friends kept saying, “what is happening?”. Honestly, we had no idea.
So, fast forward many months and we are in the midst of my husband’s unemployment (41 days, but I swear I am not counting), and instead of me being stuck in some sort of fear cycle, I am setting these freaky goals for myself and actually following through with them. What is happening??? This is odd behavior. Normally, I would be obsessed with the outcome his employment situation. Instead, I am still committed to my sustainable lifestyle change (10 pounds down, 3 inches off my waist, etc) and I have immersed myself with this crazy notion of finishing my book. I registered for two writing workshops with one providing opportunities to pitch my novel. The deadline for me completing my story is April and I have no idea how the story even ends. What is happening???
For many writers, deadlines are something not adhered to, but I crave them. They provide that spark that gives me momentum. However, after I committed to the workshop with the literary agents, I heard my friend’s voice again, “what is happening?” and laughed. I am being nudged to follow through which is scary and exciting all at the same time. I am powerless over my spouse’s job situation, but I can follow the direction that I am meant to take. I have no idea how all of this will play out, but I won’t know unless I put myself out there.