If you remember about a month ago, I shared that the woman editing my manuscript, offered me a unique opportunity where she would edit my work again – for free- after I reworked some scenes along with adding some dimension to a few of the characters. I reworked the first fifty pages,and was proceeding on, when I got the nudge.
For the last year, I have been more mindful with my thought pattern. Everything that I have been experiencing has been courtesy of what I like to call the “God nudge”. For me, it is more like a “God shove” because I don’t always pay attention the first time I experience it. Perhaps, I dismiss it, thinking that the timing isn’t right or, most likely, it is all based on fear. Fear of not being good enough. Fear of losing something. It’s tricky.
On Sunday, I got the shove after a few days of subtle nudging. I reached out to my editor and asked what she thought about me giving her the first fifty pages that are done. This is what the literary agents had originally asked for and I feel like time is of the essence. It is the thinking of striking while the fire is hot. When I hit send on that email, I immediately went to that place of “shit is getting real”.
Last night, she responded with an enthusiastic “I think that is a great idea”. So, this morning, I will peruse those fifty pages once again and send them to her. Once she has completed her task, then the fun begins with me sending my baby to individuals who will hopefully fall in love with my characters. Who will see value in my story. And if they don’t like it or think it can’t be sold to a publisher, what then? Well, I move forward following another nudge. I keep thinking of all the times that I would contemplate writing a book. Always putting it in the “someday” category. What I know is that my “someday” is now. It is all about me simply following GOD (good orderly direction). When I do that, everything else simply falls in place. I just need to be willing to get out of the way and watch it unfold.